Resolute.

Two years ago to date, I finally started a blog to express to family and friends what type of changes I wanted to make in my life. My thought was if I told people what I wanted to accomplish they would help hold me accountable to those goals. Not even two months into that and ever since then, it has evolved into a sounding board where I openly blogged about personal aspects of my life like divorce, fatherhood, love, adoption, spirituality and even heartache.

The more brutally honest I was about some of my thoughts and feelings, the more people would go out of their way to support me. Naturally, that encouraged me to dive deeper inward on the next blog post and bring something else to light. Your support has been the disinfecting sunlight into some of the darkest corners of my heart. The only way I can describe to each of you what that growth process really feels like is to tell you that I simply feel like I am more whole of a man. Thank you for that.

For me personally, this year opened with a dawn that began one of the most brilliant and promising years that I have seen in a decade. Unfortunately it transitioned into a less than satisfying sunset but I am glad to see its rays set and disappear beyond the horizon that was 2014.

Good or bad outcome, I can say that my effort was present. From me, 2014 heard more of my laughs, felt more of my love, saw more of my growth, witnessed more of my flaws and felt more of my pain than many of the previous years combined.

After the last 365 days I am unsatisfied and I hunger for more. My appetite includes a healthier version of myself, putting together and documenting an official bucket list and obtaining a comfortable financial position that I have yet to attain. Most importantly, this coming year will witness a version of me that remains genuine and one that is deliberate.

I will get back up of the mat a little quicker than I did last year. I will take a few less sips and read a few more books. I will breathe in deeper and sigh a little less. I will spend more time in the present than pining over what has been lost.

I will allow the spark for life I posses to catch the kindling of a positive attitude and guide me into the beginning of a great 2015. You should come along, it promises to be one hell of a ride.